Long Time No See~!

Hi All~

It's been a while since I last posted. I'm back in my lurker phase. lol

Don't have much to say really. I'm having a lot of personal life issues. Family drama basically. lol, who doesn't love that good 'ol family issues. 😒

Anyways, Still hoarding Yaoi and other BL merch like crazy. haha

Though, I've been holding back a lot as of late. There's so much stuff I've been wanting to get on Mercari. ughh!! so much good stuff! I did give in and buy a Pearl Boy acrylic, lol, but that's the only thing recently. And that was like... 2  months ago. 

but yeah, Just have manga coming in. heh

Oh, actually... sigh, IDK why, but I've also been buying random shit off of TEMU. haha! UGH! I don't know why I just buy shit I don't need or... really want. Just like how it looks and I buy it. I got a MDZS umbrella though! I have been wanting an anime umbrella for SO long. ugh! I tried getting a TGCF one and either I sold my kidney for the shipping on that one thing or I gave up. lol

Glad I did give it up cuz I found that MDZS umbrella on TEMU and it's actually an official product! So, I was extremally happy to have found that, and once I got that, I got a bunch of other stuff.... for some reason. loll... 

Yeah... I guess I'm a bit of a shopping addict? Maybe at the moment? IDK, Or impulse buys is the way I'm coping with the stress I'm currently under due to the aforementioned family stuff...? idk, Gonna still be silent for a while longer. Though like I've said before, I'm lurking. Still constantly on goodreads, twitter (forever will be twitter) and tiktok and stuff... 

See ya around~ 

The Three Deaths of Marisela Escobedo (Netflix Documentary)

Today I watched 'The Three Deaths of Marisela Escobedo' and man... like, I know mexico is corrupt As Fuck. Ciudad Juarez especially, but the things that occurred in that court room, really is a mockery of any sort of justice system. 

There are really no words. Everything else that happened afterwards was a cover up. For sure. We all know the narcos run almost all aspects of Mexico's political aspects or at least has a heavy influence over them. It's basically a fact. Of course there is no "proof" cuz all of the higher ups cover it up, but to watch this doc and see, clearly, how much was covered up and manipulated and who was silenced because they wouldn't give up on the truth or true justice was shocking. 

Spoilers below...

The Nightmare is Finally Coming to an End.

On November 7th, 2020, the WORLD...(it feels like, lol) and the sane Citizens in the United States of America finally took a real breath of air since this horror started four years ago.

Former Vice-President Joseph Robinette Biden Jr. was elected as the 46th president of the United States of America. Kamala Devi Harris has made history as the first woman Vice President-elect. 

I can finally breath again. Honestly. As a woman and a minority who's people are currently in cages...

Seeing a real, caring human headed into the Oval office is so much... emotion! lol.. I can't express my relief properly or enough over that fact. A real caring human being will once again grace us with literate and coherent and thoughtful messages and acts that affect the people of America. He is flawed. Yes. But he won't sacrifice thousands of american lives for a chance to play golf. He won't spew hate and vitriol and childish tantrums because people "don't like him". He won't take any chance he can to spend her(America's) citizens money to line his own pockets. He simply won't lie to her citizens about their fears of Health Care and other matters that he can control.  

We have a long, long way to go. This is just the first stepping stone to try to repair as much damage as possible done by the orange monster but ... but... man, is it a beautiful start.

President-elect Joe Biden

Vice President-elect Kamala Harris

#BidenHarris2020

Day 149 —

I'm still on... lock down? Well, not really. The little shops around me and other major stores are re-opening or have now accommodated Curbside pick-up which allows them to more or less, remote operate or whatever. So.. things are slowly going. My place of work will still be closed, most likely, until the End of the year or New Years. By that I mean, AFTER the New Year, actually. It's really sad and kinda scary to really realize that. To be honest, I don't want to go to work. I mean, I want to go to MY job. 

I really DON'T want to look for a new one in the mean time because there are just so many factors that are out of your control and I know in my place of work things will be way more different/safer because of my Union. Anyway, I do realize I need to get a temporary ... well, something, so that I can start getting some income into my home. 

As for what I've been up to... well.. Just been reading so much lately. Which is nice because with worrying about work and other life garbage situations, I read to forget and get away. For a second there, I wasn't enjoying it much. Just too much stress with my sister, whom I live with and also just with worrying over work really, my income and all. Mainly the shit with my sister and her misguided priorities, it was all becoming too much and I lost my joy for reading and for doing other things. It was a struggle to get out of that dark place of deepening depression. I didn't want to do anything. Just wanted to sleep the days away and was just getting so dark and I was hating on myself... it was scary to look back now and see in hindsight what I was feeling and thinking. Now I've found the joy again in things, like reading and video games and just loosing myself in random distractions. I'm happy to go out again and just walk my dog. It's nice. 

Day 88...? — What I've been doing this whole time.... Lots of Stuff

Interesting times, huh? Just reminiscing what has been going on and what I've done these past few months during quarantine. I've been playing pokemon go again. More frequently anyways. Even though I can't go out and do huge raids and do community day like we used to. It was fun being out with big groups and such but this new way is alright. Like... doing it from home. Definitely don't get that much or that many shinies but, eh... It's another thing to pass the time during quarantine. But alas. It looks like the world is starting to slowly go back into motion... 

Malls and most if not all stores are opening this week, all with restrictions, of course! Protocols they need to follow and such.. It's just weird. Really strange settling into this new normal. I honestly don't wanna go back to work yet, mainly because It's a theme park. Where people from ALL OVER THE WORLD come. So for me, that's kind of a scary thought. I don't want to open myself to this sickness. ~sigh~

I mean, they say all of us getting it is inevitable but, obviously, I'm scared what that might mean for me. I could die from it if exposed...

So yeah.. scary morbid thoughts on this. Happy it's almost over but scared because there is no turning back or running away from this what so ever.

As of right now I'm still being paid by work. Though now it's only 50% of my regular pay. It went from 100% to 80% in May and now to 50% in June. Honestly, I'm still grateful for that because as most know, not everyone is being taken care of by their employer like this. Since the moment we closed, we were paid our full pay. Then in May, around the 3rd I think it was, It was cut to 80% for all employee's. And It's only recently that they cut it because of the extended time in which the park as been closed. Which again, I'm not too mad about. I'm so grateful to even be getting that. 

So, my point in bringing this up, I have had a little bit more spending money since I don't have to waste on food and public transport SO.. I treated myself these!

⬅️ That's an Evangelion clear file of Shinji and Kaworu. ❤️ There on the bottom is a Cardcaptor Sakura Pin. It's her first wand & a Kero strap/keychain. 

Kingdom Hearts shoes➡️ 

From Hot Topic. :D

Also got some cute masks and lots of pins and keychains from a seller on etsy. lol... I mean, I had to treat myself just a little right? I still made sure I have enough for rent so, for now I'm good. xP

I have only received  these so far. I have yet to receive the masks and other pins. Hopefully they'll arrive soon. :D

To help keep myself sane through all this, I really got back into my video games. Especially the recently released Final Fantasy VII REMAKE. It's so fucking amazing!! Of course, there are people that hated it, purists, lol... that didn't like how they changed from the original but I honestly love it. It's REMAKE. Not REMASTERED. I love the original so much, so very much. It's tied into so much of what my childhood was but that doesn't mean I can't appreciate the new one. At it's core it's still the original story. So many lines were classic and exact it was so nostalgic and beautiful! lol

Also one cool thing that came out of this, I guess? Is that the Author Richelle Mead finally reappeared! LOL... I was a little concerned because she just vanished without a trace or word. Not that she needed to tell us readers anything really, but as she was in the middle of a book tour and then just... left-- I couldn't help but be concerned. I know she was a new mom and all that but most author's still post something you know? for almost 2 years she was just gone and there were so many fans that asked and asked but no one knew anything so, seeing all that I also grew concerned until May when she had a video chat. A live on FB I think it was... so now that I know she's just enjoying motherhood, I'm glad she's okay.

Other things I've done during this, was read. A LOT. I read so many manga, FINALLY!!! I feel, like because it was just, work, rest, sleep--work, rest, sleep, for these past few years that I never got to enjoy too much anymore. Especially since I take public transport, I was always just waiting or getting up extra early to get to work that i never felt I had time or energy to do anything but rest and sleep for the next day. So happy I got to rest as much as I did for this lock down. lol. Read lots of Manga, Yaoi, and just gay novels in general. 

Sadly one of my favorite hetero author's fell into a horror novel of her own. Her Husband and his mistress were poisoning her and tried to kill her. Also, the fucker is now suing her for her rights to all her books. I'm sure you know who I'm talking about. If not, It's Sherrilyn Kenyon. Now Sherrilyn McQueen. As she went back to her maiden name to try to escape a little something from the monster she married. He's trying to take away all of her babies, her books and characters and... man... it's just a sad story. I'm sure you can find the article somewhere. I'm not gonna get into it other than mentioning it like this...

I wish the best for her. Seriously hope she wins this lawsuit. It's so awful....

But yeah. That's all I did these past few months. Watched lots of crime stuff on YouTube and Documentaries on Netflix and HBO, watched lots of movies and shows. Read a lot of books and Manga. Played lots of video games.. I think I can look back on these days as a fond memory... I think. Aside from the Murder of George Floyd that is. Even though his Murder is recorded and all out with no arguments, with this corrupt justice system it's likely to give the white men that killed him a simple slap on the wrist as there is, once again, no real justice in the country anymore. 

I'm glad that his murder sparked a real movement and awareness. It's divided the country more but some people actually had their eyes opened to the brutality of police. Lots of change is needed and I think when history books look back on this point and time. It's going to be how this was the beginning of the end of the United States of America as we know it... or.. knew it. Shitface in the Oval Office has destroyed this great nation. This point in time when he called the Armed forces on her very citizens, it was the beginning of the end of this Country. I don't know if anyone can fix our relations with other countries ever again. It's a scary thought. Also to think where we will all be in 20 years from now. To see how much irreparable damage was dealt.

 Anyways, It's again, scary to think we're all going back to mingle with stupid idiots who don't care about the dangers to others and still won't cover their mouth when they sneeze or cough.. I just hope whomever gets covid-19 because of them survives. 

Lots of morbid thoughts. A little excitement, but mostly trepidation. 

Day 36? — & Final Fantasy VII: REMAKE

Totally lost on days.

I have to keep asking my sister what day it is. I know the number becasue of my phone but not the day. lol... Though I can just look that up too but it's odd not just KNOWING if it's Tuesday or whatever. When I was at work I would know obvs, but now I'm just... huh?! lol

Anyways, things are okay. Keeping sane thanks a MILLION to Square-Enix and having Final Fantasy VII: REMAKE to play. It is seriously a most amazing game. I am so fucking happy I have it to play. So glad I decided to pre-order it through Best Buy because I didn't have to wait and shit. I'm so sad for my friends that got it through Amazon cuz they got theirs so damn late. I got mine on the 9th! <3 Even a day before it's actual release date. lol

The game is fantastic!! The CGI is breathtaking and the voice acting is spectacular. I was so pissed that they had changed the original english voices but now, having played an all, I'm so god damn happy with it. They did us all proud.

Okay, so, overall 10/10

It was just too kick ass for me not to rate it with top scores. There are a few things that don't make sense (mainly at the end) and things I HATE to have to do. Like, different scenarios to unlock trophies and shit, but Overall. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE.

I even said that it MAYBE surpassed my beloved Kingdom Hearst!
but honestly, no. lol... I said it cuz I was high off the ending and having just beat the game but nah. Now that I've stewed on it a bit. No. haha, Not in a bad way just... okay.. look, It's Nomura-san at the helm of this project. He's in charge of BOTH projects actually, that you can SEE his twisted mind at work. lmao
I say twisted cuz, when I said earlier that a few things don't make sense, especially at the end... it has his mind-fuckery all over it. lol...
We were once again hit with the Nomura-effect. I have no idea what he's going to do. He's totally going to change things.... just dunno what and afraid to find out!!
But again, it was so much fucking fun and all the CGI and voice acting and music, OMG the music!!---it was fantastic! So amazing!

I LOVE it.

Day 14 —

It's now the 14th day of this Stay at Home order that my state has in place. I'm really running out of things to do and to find to distract myself. lol

Also, frustrated with my sister because she keeps saying "I can't live my life like this" and goes out, who knows where, every single day and it's like, Do you really think you're the only one? So I'm frustrated with her and also trying to stay as far away from everything she touches because hell, for all I know, she's now already come into contact with the virus. 

But other than that, I've been watching lots of movies and shows. I got Disney+ for a week, the free trial, and actually finished everything I wanted to watch. lol. There isn't anything on there of real interest. Although I like Star Wars, the Mandalorian isn't enough to get me on there for more than that week. hahaha..

I've tried watching a few shows, new ones, but I don't know, maybe it's just the mood that is surrounding everyone but I just can't seem to get into anything new. But I have started re-watching Criminal Minds all the way from episode one. It's actually pretty interesting to see all the episodes I missed when it was airing on TV. OMG, I can't believe it's finally on it's final season. I figured it would cancel  shortly after they sacked the actor that played Aaron Hotchner. It's not that I didn't like Emily (the character) but I also had no interest with watching it without Hotch. Even if Morgan left, Hotch was my reason for watching it. So, again, sad it's finally over?? or soon going to be, but it's about time. 

Anyways, I've tried playing Pokemon Go too but since I can't really be out too long, just a stroll, I haven't really caught anything good. Two shinies! so maybe? lol... but yeah, I can't raid since that requires at least 7 or 10 people... sigh, It's really just, not fun anymore. haha. 

I've had a lot of time to think on things and sadly most thoughts go into negative. What with my sister being such a bitch (that from above is barley the start of the things she has done and said to me recently) I'm getting into a bad head space. Not being able to go to work and just out and being along with my thoughts most of the time, man, It's totally not good when home life is negative. Ughhh... Trying to get out of it but well, not much I can do. 

Well, Just going back to Criminal Minds, more anime and more gay novels... hopefully something will help me get out of this funk. Maybe I'll try writing again... I do have the time.. I wonder if my Muse will ever speak to me again...

Day 6 —

Today is officially my day 6 of this Lockdown/safer at home emergency order.

I'm finding that I'm now utterly bored with what I was doing to keep myself entertained before. lol..
My video games and all my books... I get bored and I'm sad that I am.
Shiet!! lol
Who would've thought that I am actually kinda sad at not being able to go to work. lol...

It's always during these trying times that you find you should appreciate certain things. On top of the money of course, as I might be homeless by the time this is over but.... yeah. *sigh*

Covid-19

So like just about the rest of the world, my state is basically locked down.
I'm not working for the next two weeks, thankfully, with pay so, so far no worries about that, just get to spend the next two weeks at home.... playing games and reading. LOL

Not going out cuz I'm a super homebody and this is like... paradise to my inner introvert. lol.

Anyways, Expect to see me a lot right now. Once this is over, it's back to just lurking and browsing.

Also, this is Day two of my official "lock down".
I have weekends off so, Sat & Sun don't count for me.  As of Monday this officially started for me. So... onward to day three... #scarytimes

02.02.2020! Happy palindrome day!

It appears today is a unique day! After pokemon hunting and having fun getting a bunch of Minccino---
I got all of these.
Only 4 shiny total but this sure is a lot anyways! LOL

 

 


I came home to find this interesting article.
It's kinda cool.
So... hurray!
We're all going to probably be long dead when 03/03/3030 comes along. lol... so it's pretty awesome we get to live this date out. lol~~

Happy Super Bowl Sunday to all those that like sports!

Moving...

Ahh, once again My family and I are going to a new place.

Even though I liked it here with my Great Aunt... she's a little crazy and just frustrating to be with. Just the other week, about two weeks ago as of this post, she almost burned down the apartment because she forgot to turn off the stove. Luckily only the pot burned but it could have been so, SO bad. It's not the first time she's forgotten stuff  but she just won't accept that she's starting to forget things. And so, with that latest stunt and her just being all, "well it happens to everyone. it's done and over", We've truly decided to move out. I seriously can't begin to say how many times she has left the stove on, but at the time, I was laid off work and so I would catch it frequently, and she would just laugh and it was like.. well, okay, since I got it but you have to be more careful, and so, obviously it is more serious and it's getting worse.
But again, she won't accept she's starting to forget things, and we won't let her almost kill our dog and burn down our property. So.. moving...

That and the location doesn't have parking so it's been hell on my sister who works till night (and that's barely 8pm) most of the time as of late. Somehow it seems like 30+ new cars have been parking that now they have to park on the sidewalk cuz there is just no parking what so ever. Worst of all, she PAYS A PARKING PERMIT!! and that still doesn't get her parking. So she's fed up with paying and not having a guaranteed parking spot.
But then again, this is LA so I suppose....

We're going back to the valley, kinda and well, as much as I like that it's also going to be hard for me to go to work as easily as I have been up until now.

Right now I would just take the 1 Train and be there (at work). At this new location I have to take two buses and that wouldn't be bad, but what makes it horrible is that that first bus only passes every hour. So if say, I happen to miss it or if it comes by too early (hence the missing of the bus anyways) I'm 100% fucked and WILL BE LATE TO WORK.

So.. I'm happy because it'll just be me, my sister and my mom but not 100% happy because of that.

Still.. After this, my sister and I have been talking about really saving now to try to buy a house together so we can finally stop having to have to move as we have been my whole life...

So yes.. that's what new.
Hopefully it all goes smoothly.

Happy New Year!! 2015

OMFG!!!

We're in 2015!!!

Ahaha!! Like... WOW... here I thought the world would end in the whole 2012 shit but... we're still here!! lol...

Wow... Another year and another chance for things to go beautifully or.. horribly wrong. lol..

But here's to many great things to come for everyone!!

I have a stable job I have my family and I have my beautiful dog. haha! I hope things stay this way and well... I just hope this year is full of nothing but laughter and happiness for me and my family.


Happy New Year!!

For being so crazy....

....I actually still really do like Lana Del Rey. 

Yeah... I mean, I guess an Artist is always quirky or crazy, but the depressive shit she said the last time was just dumb and I really wish for her to TALK to someone or get help. I grew a little concerned that she actually said she just wanted to die already....

That really can't be healthy... 

But what irritated me was how she was saying how she's fucked a lot of people in the industry, blah, blah, and I just felt... well... Even if you have, you know, I have mixed feelings on you spouting that shit out there. 

Just Don't. 

So I grew to dislike her a little... 

But then...

but then...

I listen to her songs (which I have all of her stuff on my itunes) and I just fall in love with her all over again! LOL....

I mean, aside from her "worst performance ever live on SNL" I love her on studio tracks.

 Cuz... really guys? 

HOW MANY SINGERS SOUND LIKE DYING CATS WHEN THEY SING LIVE?!

A lot more than you'd think assholes.

I digress.....

But yeah, I came to dislike her a little, but then, I just can't stop loving her music...

Right now, god.. I can just sway to this forever....

Hilarity

All of this is completely fucking true.. haha!

Moving

So.. I am once again moving. Trying to keep a close eye on everything to make sure I don't loose anything this time. god only knows how much stuff I have lost during all the moves.
Lets see... here is my own mini-list that I can remember of all of our moves...

First place - Traudy's
Second - Our first real (and seemingly only) house (the only non rented house/room/place this was ours)
Third - mission hill (The Witch)
Fourth - Arleta by rosa's shop (when Belle-our cat- almost got run over)
Fifth - first time in van nuys forgot the street name but... I remember the dog Toby
Sixth - Rosa's House right next to the bus stop. As well as first time I used school bus to Kennedy
Seventh - Germain back to mission hills (lived so close to Denise)
Eighth - Back to Pacoima/Van nuys, filmore street like a block from old rosa's van nuys house
Ninth - Arleta behind Walgreens
Tenth - our little stint in Sacramento
Eleventh - with maureen
Twelfth - Tia's. (current place we're going to)

~sigh~
That's a lot.


Well, That sure Is a lot of places. lol... those little notes are how I remember the houses. hmm... interesting...

Anyways, hopefully this next move goes smoothly. >_____>

Picture Spam

Ok, as some of you know, for X-mas I finally got a digital camera (whoo~) and I also finally got a nice case for it. heh, so lately I've been carrying it around with me everywhere I go.
-----though I still need a camera that can take CLEAR pictures of the sky and especially nice pictures of the sky at night... which... the only ones I can think of that can do that are the expensive $800 dollars ones....

Ah, I digress, Anyways----
So I now have a few pictures to share haha... so, yeah, you can expect MANY more picture spam posts. I LOVE taking pictures...
Hmm... Maybe I should consider that as a side career huh? O.o

I went to my friends house the other day and took pictures of all her pets. (because my mom didn't believe they actually had that many. lol... )

First up is their doggy Luna!

Next Is: Ziggy and Mika

Her Turtle: Wallie (?? shit! I forgot his/her name! D: I think it might be Wallie or Willy... v.v shame on me...)

Here you have their kitty: Yang

Their cute bunny: Paine (might spell it pain...idk...)

And last but no least their doggies: Duchess and Wolf! :D

V___V;;; oh jeez... try to ignore the butt sniffing there... I couldn't get them to just... be still. LOL... so, I got that one there. oh well. :D

French crêpes

On Friday (February 17, 2012) My sisters and I went to watch the movie The Woman in Black. At first we went for the 9:20pm viewing but omg... we walked in and lo and behold, Even after just about two weeks of already being out, the theater was STILL completely full!! like... OMG!

I HATE front row seats and thankfully so do my sisters so... we decided to just skip it and go ahead and switch our tickets for the 11:40 viewing. So now... we had just about two hours to waste time. Sadly we had already ordered food so... We took our Nacho's and hot coffee and soda and sat outside. My Older sister. M-- said she always wanted to try this little restaurant we sat at and really... so did me and my sister--K. Since we all agreed that we wanted to.. we decided to go ahead and buy something since we had to kill time anyways. lol..

>3> The things were unfortunately a little pricey so we didn't get anything else but one plate... which BTW... I am SO glad we did... it was the most... delicious thing I have ever tasted.. like WOW!! LOVE it!

The little place is called French crêpes.  Mmm~~ wow... It's so good...
This is what our wonderful dish looked at upon arrival:

And sadly... not more than 10 minutes later... this is how our wonderfully delicious plate sat.

You know... I really wasn't past licking this plate... SERIOUSLY!!! It was just so fucking good!!
We totally just.. devoured this crêpe. I swear... It was like we were starving it was SO good!! lol... If you ever have a chance to taste/eat one... GO FOR IT!!!

Merry Christmas!

Ah, and so another year comes to a close.
It's so weird how fast these past few years seem to have flown by. Like.... holy hell!! It's 2012 in a few days!!!
I can hardly believe that.. well, I hope to end this shitty ass fucking year on a good note. Hopefully it'll mean great things for us/me in 2012.

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope you all have an absolutely beautiful day today/tomorrow with your families and loved ones. Open lots of gifts and don't eat too much at dinner! lol...

Happy Christmas 2011!!

Negligence

I've been neglecting my blogs again...
I don't mean to I just get distracted with all of my books!! lol..

I've been pondering lately though... I was roaming through a few publisher sites and quite a few are having Open Calls.... and then I had a thought...

Should I write and submit my own novella/book??

The prospect of it has me nervous and excited... idk... should I?
>o<

Ahh~ A dream come true!

Is it really so wrong of me to think that when I see two guys alone, out at the mall or walking down the street I think.... they're, TOGETHER, together? lol....
I like to think not.

Well, today, right now as my sister and I were driving back home from walking the dog at the park, we stopped at a red light.
We stopped right by a house by my old middle school. With just a few seconds... OMG... I think I just saw the beginning of a possible new story. A plot is forming... I need to let it thrive...

Anyways, It was something like this.. and please excuse the 5th grade drawing. I did it quickly on paint so that I can reference it again later when the story and characters form.

The house was a little like this:

From the window, on the far left there was a guy in a white shirt, military cut hair, possibly dirty blonde or light brown, was washing dishes.

In the window by the door, there were blinds there (which is why it has lines there) and walking by there was a shirtless guy, with black hair, short cut, and styled a little spiky.

He had come walking from the direction of the guy washing dishes, and the guy that was washing dishes had his head turned to the guy walking away and they seemed to be well... talking.

And omg... the first thing that came to mind was... THEY'RE A COUPLE! lol...
Even if they're not, I don't care.

My main point in this whole crazy post is that, I was totally inspired by this peaceful, domestic... just... NORMAL scene. It really makes me want to write something where there are no troubles, just a regular relationship with no hate and boundaries.

Two beautiful men are whispering in my head now that that scene is rolling in my mind. I can't wait to hear what they have to say, what their story will be. Eek! I so want to see where this is going to go and what they're gonna reveal.

For now I can only wait until they speak louder. But isn't it awesome?! lol...